<3 I am so angry, I feel so unjustified, I feel like screaming, because life isn't fair, it doesn't treat me right or good. I stumble continually, falling slowly and painfully in amazed terror.
Ugly not only invades my exterior frame but is all through my interior,it slowly rots away ,deterioates feeling, numbing joy, maximizing pain, subcumming to fear...all in all leading to the death of my soul.
What is love? That I have no feeling toward it . It doesnt become anesthesia for my pain but further allows my pain and burden and heartbreak. I go through phases of this every 6 months and though it wrecks my emotions,it brings a healing. I must allow truth to overcome me on my journey to find joy and love.
Jesus hold me when Im down and out, be my Comforter, my Abba when times are so hard. Give grace and mercy everlasting, cuddle me till the tears drop no more.Change me into your will, your beauty, your way. I am Yours Lord I am Yours <3
XoXo <3
Music of the Day:
Jesus take the Wheel- Carrie Underwood
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