P H A S E S

<3 I am so angry, I feel so unjustified, I feel like screaming, because life isn't fair, it doesn't treat me right or good. I stumble continually, falling slowly and painfully in amazed terror.

Ugly not only invades my exterior frame but is all through my interior,it slowly rots away ,deterioates feeling, numbing joy, maximizing pain, subcumming to fear...all in all leading to the death of my soul. 

What is love? That I have no feeling toward it . It doesnt become anesthesia for my pain but further allows my pain and burden and heartbreak. I go through phases of this every 6 months and though it wrecks my emotions,it brings a healing. I must allow truth to overcome me on my journey to find joy and love. 

Jesus hold me when Im down and out, be my Comforter, my Abba when times are so hard.  Give grace and mercy everlasting, cuddle me till the tears drop no more.Change me into your will, your beauty, your way. I am Yours Lord I am Yours <3

XoXo <3


Music of the Day:


Jesus take the Wheel- Carrie Underwood

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I push,pull n push again is there no win?...

In this sin...

Desire Fueling fire...that inspires my nitemares, YES I'M SCARED...

Torn between two worlds...A downward swirl of trail and error or want n terror

Like clock work I'll stop work...ing towards the better me...

Flesh loses the civil war instead of He...I am crumbling steadily....

N crying for my plea bargain.... ur grace please just a taste....

Maybe then it will slow my pace of inner destruction n immoral sudduction....

To this world n lifeless traditions...my only supersition belief...

help me...save me..Lord raise me for every new battle...

Daily <3

Summer 2011

I am officially a junior in college, WOOOW, college life is going way to fast!! I'm gonna be out in the real world in just two more years!! *Big Sigh* Anywho I have some poems I wrote and wanted to share. They are slightly repetitive hahaha, but they make you think! 

What if life was as simple as smile and a quickened heart beat
What if it webbed and wobbled but never fell down
What if it granted your every wish n desire
What if
What if it was as sweet as compliments
What if it was as strong as temptation
What if it was as beautiful as the perfect musical strum
What if
What if it charged  only with love
What if it produced only with Godly aspirations
What if it's motivation was your  ambition
What...if

<3 <3 <3

Say something to soothe my fears
Say something so my ears can finally stop there endured struggle to listen
Say something so my heart can slow they blazin speeds
Say something so my  mind will stop it's panicing n scattered thoughts
Say something so the sweat won't reach my knee bent  ground
Say something so mouth will stop it's clinched tension
Say something so my eyes can open two a new tmr 
Say something so that my soul can finally ease into soaring freedom

Say something Baby... 

XoXo <3



Music of the Day:

Yours to Own-Trip Lee